Dat 8

Sunday, December 19. 2010

 I wake up & look in my frig.  There are not enough eggs for the rest of the week.  So I drink my latte and go to Whole Foods for their breakfast taco.  It is one of the tastiest and economical meals there: three toppings make a big taco for only $2.15.  I eat it.  I am still a little hungry-but satisfied for now, so I stop.  As I ride in the car I realize that I am not hungry after all.  For lunch, I decide to eat something I usually don’t let myself have.  I get a piece of pizza-also from Whole Foods.  It has veggies on it but not many.  I eat it-it is good.  I definitely don’t feel satisfied.  I decide to go home anyways.  I go home and have some sprouted cereal.  I am definitely not satisfied from the meal. I distract myself with television for a little while then have some wine and cheese.  It helps, but I ‘m still a little agitated.  For dinner, I cook some pasta and salsa cruda.  I still have wine left over from the afternoon, so I have it with dinner.  I’m still a little confused about whether or not I have hunger.  I eat it all.  It was probably somewhere in between not hungry and full but that’s okay. 

I don’t know if the agitation was due to the fact that I was eating more processed food than I usually do, or if I just was hungry.  I still hold on to the notion that our bodies really don’t know quite what to do with processed foods.  We have only been eating processed foods for under 100 years, & I don’t think our bodies know what to do with them yet.  On the other hand, I felt agitated.  Maybe it really was just that I still had some hunger.  Maybe I really just wasn’t listening to my body’s signals to eat a little more.  It seemed like it should have been enough food, so I didn’t want to listen to what my body was saying.  I’m going to commit for the next few days, to take a few more bites of food if I am feeling that agitation to see what happens.  It may work; it may not.